READY? GET SET. GO JMHIE!

i've finally decided stuffs and finally made up my mind.

i will AGAIN let go of the feelings i have..

i don't know if i tried it that HARD. i just don't want to pursue this feeling
cuz i know, i know.. it will FREAKIN HURT ME AGAIN.. just like what had happen before..

but this time, this time.. no reasons at all. i just want to LOVE MYSELF. and for once, not to HURT her anymore, for like a HUNDRED of TIMES now..

i don't see things NEGATIVELY between HIM and ME.
but others do.

so, better live the FEELINGS i have rather than LOSING people who gives me HAPPINESS everyday.

LOVE is taking risk.
like:
i told him i LOVE him, he didn't answer back but put our conversation to other stuffs, but didn't say that I SHOULD STOP. (that makes me think, it's not negative.)
i'm showing him how much i care. he appreciate things but NOT that showy to tell. (i bet.)
he cares, but again.. HE'S NOT THAT SHOWY. but i think he actually do. (i bet.)
geeee.. GOT SOO MANY THINGS THAT KEEPS ME FEELING THIS WAY.

but then again, i'm setting things straight. stayin' here all by myself. i guess, not showing up will help me do my thing.. :)

*oiaf: very big thanks to my friends who gave advices. :) i soo LUUURRRVVV u guys. :)