i really wanted to help.

last monday, i went to the mall shopping with my mom and my good friend. i bought two pair of shoes and a two pair of flipflops.. the flipflops i bought weren't for me, it's for my friend and for ANOTHER FRIEND. :)

the next day, it's our final exam.. and im quite excited to give him the FLOPS, "hainavasia".. yea. imitation of havaianas. :) it really makes me laugh, so i bought it, for him.

but, it's already 11AM, he's not still around, IT'S OUR FINAL EXAM, i realized.. bakit kaya wala pa sya?.. syempre, di ako makatiis na hindi magtanong.. ayon.. DI PA PALA SYA NAKAKABAYAD. i dunno. pero biglang naging mabigat aura ko.. siguro kasi, if i were in his place.. gaganahan mga magulang ko na pagaralin ako. he's so active in class, lahat ng requirements complete. lahat ginagawa nya, LAHAT FULL EFFORT. pero, ako?.. wala man lang ka-effort-effort. :( i cried. ewan ko, kasi, siguro, may impact yung nangyari sakanya sakin. my mom always tell me and my siblings a phrase like this: "tgnan nyo, andaming mga taong gusto makapagaral.. pero dahil wala silang pera, wala. kahit na may abilidad pa sila.. anse-swerte nyo pa nga."

i tried to lend money from my mom.. kaya lang, she didnt understand the situation. i mean, yea.. i guess she tried. pero, ewan. she asked for his family background.. she asked how much. pero, WALA. her point is, they knew it's finals, beforehand, dapat nakapag-prepare na sila. stuffs like that. inexplain ko. pero. I FAILED.

i'm sorrrryyy!! :( i really wanted to help.. i really, really WANT to. AMBIGAT NG PAKIRAMDAM KO. dont worry, pag di ako pinagaral dahil sa failing grades. ipro-propose ko sa nanay ko na ikaw na lang pagaralin. kasi MATALINO ka dude. :( sayang..

nanghihinayang tlga ko. and i know, you'll be disappointed pag nalaman wala akong ipapahiram. :( im so] soorrryy!! :((